Bring on the gossip?
It’s been a year since I moved back to the states. I miss me being in Berlin. Biking and walking everywhere, feeling exposed and excited. I’ve been able to go back and spend some time there, be productive, and I like how that is going. I’m not ready to move back, oh god. I’m not ready to move anywhere. I need some calm after my self-inflicted whirlwind.
It was easier to keep this blog going. I reported what I encountered. There were many different and challenging moments that kept me on my toes. Now I find myself analyzing situations more, especially situations involving people. I think Los Angeles confines me to write more personally. Bring on the gossip?
I have a newfound appreciation for LA still. It’s where I feel home. (This comfort was desperately desired last year.) There’s motivation and a sense of community here in LA that I just wasn’t able to see as clearly before. I think it takes longer to mature here. Perhaps grad school was too fresh on my mind as well; or some people had to be weeded out…
I want to invest in Los Angeles again. I want to make a close, loving relationship. That’s more of a decision than desire I think. In LA you have to make it happen for yourself, or be a painter. No offense.
I’ve been assisting a successful LA artist on and off for a few years now, and I’m satisfied in a way to watch people’s names in the art world pop up… and then stick around. A mental map is evolving around me and I’m comforted to know I’m not alone. Artists live and work in my neighborhood. Artists live and work all around LA.
It’s taken a year for this idea to come to fruition; watching everyone around me. This past year of observing LA again has turned up an elated and optimistic state of mind. Funny how these stages fill in the gaps between shows…
